Automatic writing was actually fun and I think I’ll have to just grab a pen and just write more often – see what comes up.

I wonder did my sub conscience bring up some deeper ideas along with more foolish ones or, was it more a matter of me interpreting some meaning from the writings. My gut feeling is it was probably the latter a bit like finding faces in clouds. Regardless of what came from where it was still interesting.

I had all sorts of ideas about animating a series of cool or witty words on the screen. I’m glad it didn’t eventuate although I’m sure I could have made it look interesting but it would have probably been pretty hollow.

I’m sure many people won’t get what I’m trying to say, but it starts out fairly easy to interpret so maybe people will get there is some meaning to it rather than it just throwing out a few random phrases.

some people didn’t like the title. I can see their point that it may not need a title but.. Its important to me, it fits it was the thing that stood out most from my initial reading of the text, it sort of sums up the whole piece, thing that I have learnt sort of a twisted wisdom, I’m not sure those that dislike the title necessarily get the rest of it either, or maybe they just think nothing is better than toast.

The title stays.
The audio needs work.

No one mentioned the timing tweaks that I would so given the time available I leave those tweaks and concentrate on Audio.

Well a lecture on sound excellent, accept adding to what has been mentioned in tutes chucking a bit of your favorite music under some vision isn’t really what its about and unfortunately generating a few moody tones is pretty much as bad. Sound needs to add a dimension rather than just fill the silence.

The voice over adds, it gives extra meaning that isn’t going to be gleaned from the images alone. (I tried text on the screen but that didn’t work).

Just voice seems a bit thin everything else is so layered, The only sounds I imagined were some wind noised at the end as I dissipated over the view. Ocean noises for the first bit would work well I’ve always been impressed as to how well a little sound can add life to still images. I would have rather had video of the ocean and sky etc if i could.

It was settled narration with ocean/wind sounds to add to the mood .

Heaps of takes later and I had audio that fit, it didn’t sound how I envisigned and I possibly like it less now with audio than with out. Is it just a hating the sound of your own voice thing or is it as crap as I think it is ?

On to After Effects to create some transitions I had worked through how it would all come together in my head so many times Ialready had a timing worked out. Needed to find a couple of tutorials to help we create some of the effects I was after but it all came together pretty well.

I started doing some image searches around various words or phrases. I found some nice images that fit with vision but not enough and couldn’t quite see how this was going to help.

I remembered having a series of photo’s taken on a stormy day at Bruny, great skys and umbrellas and coats on the beach, So I started looking back through my old photos, flagging all that summed up the feel or fit the narrative.

Thats the answer, what better source to use for a reflective work than old photos.

whose there.

I can’t face it until after my coffee, no need to worry nothing that I need to hide and I doubt she could have read that scrawl anyway. I remember writing some of it but not all (some i just can’t quite make out, or even guess at). I can see bits that I recognise and a lot I don’t. The start is obviously me trying to write something odd, but much of the remainder actually surprises me.

My favorite Line is “lust is better than toast”.

Well after hours of trying to be clever and not able to let go I finally did it, a piece of writing dragged from the void.

Accept none of it was very automatic I constantly fell into bringing up ideas and words I had had previously (just the good bits of course) hardly non censored, hardly automatic, and of course those bits were no longer fresh or exciting,just contrived, forced awful. If only I had recorded them when they happened.

There were some random bits as well, but they never seemed to last. I just can’t seem to let go, speaking out loud is different to speaking it in you head, maybe its the mic. The whole speech thing goes of for hours. Most of it self referential, about how I hate words, thoughts are deeper than words, word are just inventions used to describe them, etc. I did like one bit about seeing a small boat on an ocean in the boat is a man, a man fishing for words, but catching only letters. A boat full of letters, but no words. I hate words…

Nice but after finding that, then each subsequent recording tried to bring that again.

Many recording later I did an exercise just saying the first word that came in to my head starting with each letter of the alphabet, that was fun and stopped me thinking for a while.

I finally gave up on the whole speech thing, maybe the trouble is years of censoring my self when speaking (although I manage to usually say the wrong thing, there is some very flawed editing going on) I still think ahead of my speech with plenty of time to steer the conversation.

I found a scrap piece of paper one of my kids had been cutting up, grabbed a pen and put down the mic.

Its was well after 3am the light were dimmed to practically off (I kept look at things) and I decided to just write something stupid (I think before I was trying to write something smart), just to let go.

Some time later I’m startled by my wife wondering what the hell I’m doing sitting in the dark and why don’t I come to bed.

I’m tired ,what am I doing? bed sounds good. I stumble off.

Slightly put off by the notion, I write slowly which gives me too much time to think ahead of my hand controlling editing censoring as I go.

I’m thinking I may overcome this by recording a stream of dialog rather than writing.